As advised by Mama, I need to do this. Well, it’s not Hari Raya yet but yeah, I don’t know if I could still breathe this beatiful world in days to come. So I take this opportunity to seek for forgiveness from everyone whom I’ve hurt. That’s totally sincere from the bottom of my heart.
Anyway, I’ve lead a new and brighter life. I hold no grudges of him and her anymore. Release the awful past we had. “Yet the memories still remains...” that’s what his PM says which I totally agree with it; forgive but not forget.
I’ve got no more enemies now. Up to him and her to still label me as that. What I know is that’s my best intention.
Nope. I’m not sad. But I’m thankful to dearest God who opens up my heart to accept everything that happened to me all this while and gave me the courage and chance to seek for forgiveness. I love you God.
I know there’s a reason to everything that happened. And so once again, to everyone whom I’ve hurt before, thousand apologies from me.
Like Syaf, I’m already in Hari Raya mood. Hell this is fun! I can’t wait to eat those dishes. I can’t wait to put on my new Baju Raya. I can’t wait to meet those people whom I’ve not seen for months or perhaps, years? I can’t wait for money money money! I can’t wait for Hari Raya shows on Suria, RTM1, RTM2, TV3, SCTV and RCTI! I can’t wait for everything!
I am currently listening to Pulanglah by Aishah, one of Hari Raya songs. It touches my heart, really. Another song that touches my heart so deep is Cahaya Aidilfitri by BDB. Oh God, I can cry listening to these songs. Cause it reminds me of my late grandma and grandpas.
And I noticed something. Being single for years - the last day I’m in relationship is 30th of November 2004 - is nice. I get to meet different type of guys. It’s like i-met-this-guy-then-we-both-ignored-each-other-then-I-met-a-new-one-then-again-we-ignored-each-other-then-a-new-guy-came-and-the-story-goes-on. Seriously, it’s one after another. God doesn’t want me to feel lonely, I guess. And at the same time, God wants me to see different types of guys which at the end of the day, all I have to do is to choose the right one.
Oh Syaf. I have reasons to show my sister “DON’T BE SUCHA LAME-OOOO!”. She actually plans to do that since last year’s Hari Raya but to no avail. And this year she plans it again so I assume last year’s history will repeat itself. *winkwink* HAHAHA!
And it’s off day for sister and Zul tomorrow, I supposed. They should go as planned; paint the living room! OH YEAY!
Idayu was the first bestfriend who gets to see my rebonded and extended hair in real life! HAHAHA!
