1. A relative passed away yesterday night. 2. Another soon-to-be relative passed away just now. 3. Fever. 4. Blocked nose. 5. Stomach cramp. 6. HEAD HURTS SO BAD. 7. Couldn't sleep well.
My condolences to those family I've mentioned above.
I don't know if I can yell any louder.
Heaven and Hell.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
I hope I could take this still. No, I can't. Yes, I should. But I really can't. Okay. I want to!
Well, if not feelings, at least do spare me some thoughts, please.
On a brighter note, I spent all my cash off for The Body Shop items. It feels heaven back then. Thank you Atiqah for those discounts! Be prepared alright! I'll shop more one day. HAHA!
And I received a message.
HI MISS, I'M RUNNING A MODEL COMPANY FOR MY ELDER BRO. AND WE ARE VERY INTERESTED IN YOU TO JOIN US. WE DO PHOTOSHOOTS, EVENTS AND ROADSHOWS. OUR PHOTOSHOOTS ARE OUTDOOR, WEDDING,SPORT DRINKS, CARS,FASHION AND MANY OTHERS. WE PAY YOU HIGH PRICE FOR EACH SHOOT YOU TAKE WITH COMMISSION. SMS ME WITH YOUR NAME AT 9******8. WE HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON. PLS DO REPLY.
Thank you whoever-your-name-is but nah. Me? A model? Total crap.
But that's okay, cause I'm here to stay.
Radin Suriana's Day.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
The plan goes smoothly. It was nice seeing cheese in my meals. It'd be nicer if I see cheese on every of my meal. HAHA. Anyway, today started off well and something cock up in the middle but in the end, it was preety.
On a brighter note, I felt relieved once again after keeping secrets for 2 straight days and when my phone rang and the screen displayed "Zul" which sister grab that phone from the table to pass it to me, by then she saw his name.
Sister: Oh! Kau ada scandal eh! Me: Kau tak tau ke? Dari dulu pe scandal aku Zul. (My reasons are really true but I don't think she knew about that.)
After some minutes.
Sister: Eh! Buat apa Zul call kau eh? Me: Suka dia uh. Aku pun tak tau, dah lama dia tak call aku. Baru ni kali. Sister: Bedek! Step Zul lain je! Me: Betul! ZulFadli! Nak check, check uh!
I felt relieved when she say "tak payah!". Oh my goodness. Sucha close shave. HAHA! Anyway, pictures could help me say it all.
Last but not least, Happy 21st Birthday sister! Oh no. You're age-ing. So am I.
I had Pizza. Muhammad Firdaus too ordered Pizza in camp to celebrate for having 100% passes in every test they took. Muhammad Firdaus, your girlfriend is reallyveryso proud of you. HAHA. BUT, you got 3 more tests to go. Make sure you pass those too.
And I feel bad. I spent lesser time with him tonight by the phone.
If you could see what I've seen.
And now I feel like blogging again.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
I don't know why but today I feel so happy and hyper. Is it because of a can of red bull I've drank just now? Or maybe the satay Mama bought from Johor? Wait! Maybe because of tomorrow? HAHA. I guess so.
Okay let's pray hard sister won't drop by my blog which I believe she wouldn't so yeah, we family together with Zul planned on having a surprise birthday for her tomorrow. That i totally can't wait because we're having it at Pizza Hut and I badly am craving for those cheese, cheese and more cheeses. (HAHA! Only my BFs know how's my attitude when I got cheese in my hands!)
Right. I know what you all thinking. Unlike people who went to Pizza Hut for their Pizzas and Pastas. But me, cheese! -______________- Laugh all you want. "Cheese is my 2nd lover.." -as quoted by Muhammad Firdaus- what!
Talking about Muhammad Firdaus. I told him if ever we were to quarrel again, we'll fight over at the arcade for car racing. So we'll challenge as a beginner using automatic cars. So then, who get's the 1st place, wins!
Then he recommended on having guitar hero instead of car racing. I declined because I've never practiced on that game so car racing is still on! When I'm really goooood at guitar hero than we'll challenge on that okay baby!
HAHA! And uh, I so sound like I'm deprived of motherhood by imagining Muhammad Firdaus as a baby which I'm buying him a pacifier so he won't sulk anymore, Mamy Poko Pants which he used that when he's a real baby (me too! me too! me too!), Sustagen milk(which he wants Anlene instead but then I'd gave him Anlene Gold for stronger bones). Then I gave him a big hug for getting mad and sang him Barney song!
~..I love you. You love me. We are happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you. Won't you say you love me too..~ (aww.. so sweet of you Radin Shazwani. You're sure to be a good mother one day!)
-_______________________-
Okay please ignore above. I know I'm 32. (Go ahead. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laught at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Go ahead. I don't mind. I don't care.)
And when I mind, it simply means that I care..
Chocolate Cookies!
I think my tag board is preety sensitive these days. Yes it did filter bad words. And not bad words too! -__________-
Anyway, I bought more cookies from Marks & Spencer again yesterday. Not forgetting a packet for Muhammad Firdaus. So I have 2 packets of Digestive Milk Chocolate and a packet of Chocolate Cookies in total for him.
After which I went to the next shop; Isetan to get myself a dress. Then I saw this men long sleeve shirt so I asked Mama if it's nice then she say, yes. So I told her if I could get that for Muhammad Firdaus, she agreed. So I took M size for him which I hope it'd fit him perfectly.
Then I told Muhammad Firdaus about those things that I bought for him and how handsome he's gonna look on that shirt. But he scold me for not telling him first before buying. Ada ke patut?! HAHA!
But still I'm happy cause I can't wait to see him wear that shirt during sister's engagement! Hip hip hooray! Actually I haven't consume any foods since I'm awake just now so that explains how terribly hungry I am right this minute.
And now no one can touch us..
Should I go or not?
Sunday, March 22, 2009
What if I were to be the only girl there? Not that I'm not used to being the only girl with my classmates but this is an outing. Outing and school is not the same, you see.
HOW?
Nevertheless, Faizal has got a good point there. "kau nk malu buat apa kita classmate kan. lagi pun that time aku sorang lelaki belajar dng korang kat lib". Yes, I totally agree.
But really, the feeling is of a total different!
No girly-girly talk. No girly-girly laugh. No girly-girly walk. No girly-girly window shop. No girly-girly everything. What the hell, I know. Cause I've been with guys all along in school. I can turn into a guy like this, one day. (Okay please don't Radin Shazwani!)
Beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries.
Nabilah's Day.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Oh yes. We celebrated another one of our BFs day in advance yesterday. A surprise birthday for the birthday girl turns out to be a surprise birthday for those who celebrated it with her. GRR!
Well, at least. Taufiq has done a great job. Seems like it's his first time planning a surprise birthday for someone cause I helped him manage his surprise plan and call up the girls side and all, so I know. HAHA!
So anyway, Nabilah, I hope you really enjoyed your day with us despite the fact that Syaf couldn't make it due to her tight schedule for work. And I'm preety sure, she'll make it up to you one day okay?
PICTURES!
Can I not stay and live this lie?
Unwell.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Can I do something better other than watching television, playing computer, do some random scribblings or even rot at home like nut?
I'm down with fever that's why. Okay actually both me and Muhammad Firdaus were down with fever. Kita cute, aku tau. -_____________-
Oh btw, I saw this preety new-in-stock Rip Curl sling yesterday at Vivo. Mama was on the verge of taking out her ATM card to pay for it but I change my mind to not get it. Because I've got too many bags and furthermore, I've been asking a lot of things from her lately already. So, tell me I'm a good girl, people. (Well at least Muhammad Firdaus says that I am a good girl without me asking him to tell me that I am. *grins*)
I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell..
I'm happy. =)
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
People say when you love somebody, write his name and draw a circle around it. Never draw a heart shape around it cause a heart could break while a circle is a shape that goes round and round, forever. And I just did it. See!
And I totally miss you.
If I fall over, will you catch me, baby?
Results Day.
Yes. An early post so a very good morning all. =)
These days have been disastrous. I'm unwell. With a very bad addition to it is results which I'm totally worried for it and Muhammad Firdaus have been listening to "I'm scared. My results. How?" for umpteen times already.
So yesterday night I keep logging in NYP Portal and check my results every minute but it keeps telling me that it's not available yet. I gave up and stare at my laptop screen till 1am till I couldn't stand any longer so I slept in front of my laptop, not switched off.
Then I was awake by Muhammad Firdaus message asking how's my result so I quickly replied him "I wanna check it right now." and "I'm scared." to go along with it. Told you I've been telling him how scared I was and he's being a good boyfriend who motivates me with inspiring words like "you'll be fine" and "i have faith in you", things like that.
So I login and still it's unavailable. I off laptop, head to my living room getting all worried. Then I received another message. And it's from NYP this time.
I checked bit by bit. First module, passed. Second, passed. And I continued until I reached the ninth module which is the last module, passed.
So I thank Allah so much for letting me passed all my modules once again. And I've learnt with His help and me trying my very best, I can make it.
Then I showed my parents this superb news and of course forwarded that message to Muhammad Firdaus too. So now, I can enjoy without any worries! Oh yeay!
Thank you Allah once again, I love you.
NCO Camp.
Monday, March 16, 2009
After 3 days away from home, I went back. For once I feel so short like a primary school kid with big bulky bag pack but that's the very part I'm satisfied with; home sweet home.
The warm heart feeling picture of the cadets.
Being an instructor was never easy.
For that two ass-es.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Oh please don't come back and ruin our lovely build castle.
PLEASE!
Just back off before I snap. I won't simply let you both destroy this. Cause we believe our love is strong. Very strong.
And do treat us with mutual respect, thank you.
Oh Dearest Love.
Today is our day and you’re not here with me yet again. But even though you’re away serving the nation, still you could make me feel that I’m important by contacting me every single day without fail be it during your free time, your lesson time, your curi-curi time and your bed time, already makes my everyday.
And because you’re Muhammad Firdaus, the man I’ve been with for 4 months and that only man who understands me what love means and because I believe that your love is true makes me loving you more than I love myself.
I know we’ve been bad these days and I’m the cause for everything. So now it’s my turn to let you hear to this song which means a lot to me. Here is for you Muhammad Firdaus.
But before that, pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease, pause the song at the top first. =) Then play this video.
It's so hard to say that I'm sorry I'll make everything alright All these things that I've done Now what have I become, and where'd I go wrong? I don't mean to hurt, just to put you first I won't tell you lies (I'm sorry) I will stand accused With my hand on my heart I'm just trying to say
I'm sorry It's all that I can say You mean so much And I'd fix all that I've done If I could start again I'd throw it all away To the shadows of regrets And you would have the best of me
I know that I can't take back all of the mistakes But I will try Although it's not easy I know you believe me Cause I would not lie Don't believe their lies Told through jealous eyes They don't understand (I'm sorry) I won't break your heart I won't bring you down But I will have to say
Happy 4th monthsary, baby!
At my place.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
It's nice to have them hanging around at my place just to have a meet up because it's been more then a week the last time we met and yeah, the word 'nice' just defines everything.
And 'love' too defines us.
Love without hurting is not love..
Through these nights.
Monday, March 09, 2009
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy.
This is all I need.
And if i fall..
And now.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
I can go crazy like this.
What the hell am I thinking?
I'm scared if I lose you, I'm not prepared.
I love Saturdays.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Just me and you sat on a cozy cushion under a gigantic screen with some popcorns or maybe nacho cheese and your shoulder for my head to lie on is the nicest thing I could ever ask for..
..was what I only dreamt of. -____________________________-
Because that bloody tickets were all selling fast and the next show available will be very late. Damn you who watch that Watchmen show today. You should have give Muhammad Firdaus some heart or some chance cause tomorrow he'll be booking in and that he really wanna watch that movie.
Nevertheless, sharing logic and stupid jokes, laugh hysterically or should I say when-I-laugh-I-sound-like-a-donkey and talk about his NS days simply make my day. Okay wait. What I mean is that spending time with him is always the best and I want more. HAHA.
This may sound typical but no words could describe how much I love you Muhammad Firdaus cause that clearly explains my feelings, I swear.
With my hand on my heart, I just wanted to say..
Congratulations Rabit!
I am
very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very
happy for one of my Hammies,
Rabi'atul Adawiyah, for achieving
very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very
good grades for her 'A' level. Very
proud of you Rabit!
Let's celebrate! HAHA! I sound like I'm the one who got those results. As requested by her, I'm not gonna mention her results here cause I know she's a good girl who don't like to show off of her grades. But trust me, her grades are veryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery good.
The star up in the sky..
Something that perks me up.
Thursday, March 05, 2009
So I had Strawberry Cheesecake from Ben & Jerry's which was not as powerful as Haagen Dazs in the morning. And now I'm having a very Hot Chocolate that could burn my tongue so bad after a few more sips. Nevertheless, I'm satisfied for everything. Every single thing.
And I got another tub of Chocolate Fudge Brownie from Ben & Jerry's to be eaten. Tomorrow. I'm gonna eat that all up by tomorrow. Muhammad Firdaus must have envy me with that and when he gets to know I ate Arnolds yesterday. HAHA!
So he asked me to treat him to Ice Cream without mentioning from which shop, therefore I offered him cheap Ice Cream from Mama shop. Cause I believe he'd go with everything that I do. *teasehimteasehimteasehim*
And I just checked out from Yahoo! Movies that My Bloody Valentine is not R21 but M18 instead, as advised by Muhammad Firdaus. (Now who's that clever one who said that it's R21? HAHA!). I thought of catching that cause the best part is it's in 3D and Jensen Ackles acts in it. But it's okay. Watchmen this Saturday would be nice. =)
I lovelove and missmiss him more..
Atiqah's Day.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Okay so this very-early-post-but-it's-the-right-time-to-post specially goes out to one of my Hammies, Atiqah, for achieving in growing a year older.
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ATIQAH! Oh no, you're aging. Soon it'll be my turn. I DON'T WANT CAN?!
So anyway, the last time we met was on January. Another meet up session can Hammies? =) Now let me post a picture of her since this post is for her and only hers.
OOOOPSS! Wrong picture! Haha. "Oooopss!" aku mintak kena tampar. Okay next picture please.
That one can? No? Can or no? Okay fine. I'll get you nicer one. But that one cute what? Nevermind. Nevermind. NEXT!
ALRIGHT! Much better! And much more decent. =) HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY again Atiqah! Hope you enjoy your day to the fullest.
And why the hell did I post like a primary kid this time?
P.S. Atiqah! Bila nak vroom-vroom aku around Singapore?
In just a blink of an eye..
Taufiq's Day.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Yesterday was 28th of February, the day we celebrated Taufiq's birthday which actually falls on 8th of March but we've got no other choice since each of us were busy with something else on some planned dates therefore we got yesterday to celebrate his day.
So yeah Taufiq, Happy 19th very advance Birthday not-good-anymore boy! -___________________-
Cause he learned some new-yet-disgusting words from other boys and still could make a story upon those words that have been learnt. Very bad boy!
So, back to the story.
The cutest thing is that we prepare all his birthday stuff right in front of the Tampines Mall door and had our port(a void deck, to be precise) as a place to celebrate his birthday. We wanted to do it at the park near the pond at Tampines Sec area initially but we had void deck instead for a back-up plan since the weather doesn't seem nice.
Which the weather wasn't nice at all! It pours so heavily where we got trapped under another void deck. While being trapped, you all should know what we did since the bestest thing there with us is a mouth to talk and talk and a camera to take tons and tons of pictures. But my camera plays evil with me and went dead right after Taufiq's picture with number '19' on his forehead which I'm gonna show you all right after this.
Anyway, thank you for hooking-up and still hooking-up with this many-words post of mine. Cause yes you know, my post don't have a lot of pictures to be posted unlike Nabilah's. Go to hers for more.
That was the day before when we got all of his birthday gifts. And the last picture simply explains our butt-smacking game. It's like the attempt of I-want-to-smack-hers-but-she-grabbed-my-hand-so-tight-then-she-wants-to-smack-mine-at-the-same-time-so-I-won't-give-her-the-chance-therefore-I-quickly-grabbed-another-hand-of-hers. Then the one who took this picture which obviously is Syaf, doesn't want to get involved so the reason of hers is to make herself busy by snapping pictures. What a story line Ony! But the butt-smacking part is true.
Okay. Okay. BACK to the story. So this was the real day.
Told you! My camera went dead right after that picture!
Oh yes, I haven't been mentioning Muhammad Firdaus name here. I know this week I've gone to him more then I go to my bestfriends. I believe my bestfriends understand that I've missed him too much already after almost-2-weeks I didn't get to meet him. So thank you so much bestfriends!
And you, Muhammad Firdaus. Thank you for the day.
Oh my! I don't plan to write a lot but I did. HAHA! What the hell?! Ni pun aku nak bilang?
I would put myself right beside you..
Let's get stronger.
These days have been the worst days of my life.
1. A relative passed away yesterday night. 2. Another soon-to-be relative passed away just now. 3. Fever. 4. Blocked nose. 5. Stomach cramp. 6. HEAD HURTS SO BAD. 7. Couldn't sleep well.
My condolences to those family I've mentioned above.
I don't know if I can yell any louder.
Heaven and Hell.
I hope I could take this still. No, I can't. Yes, I should. But I really can't. Okay. I want to!
Well, if not feelings, at least do spare me some thoughts, please.
On a brighter note, I spent all my cash off for The Body Shop items. It feels heaven back then. Thank you Atiqah for those discounts! Be prepared alright! I'll shop more one day. HAHA!
And I received a message.
HI MISS, I'M RUNNING A MODEL COMPANY FOR MY ELDER BRO. AND WE ARE VERY INTERESTED IN YOU TO JOIN US. WE DO PHOTOSHOOTS, EVENTS AND ROADSHOWS. OUR PHOTOSHOOTS ARE OUTDOOR, WEDDING,SPORT DRINKS, CARS,FASHION AND MANY OTHERS. WE PAY YOU HIGH PRICE FOR EACH SHOOT YOU TAKE WITH COMMISSION. SMS ME WITH YOUR NAME AT 9******8. WE HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON. PLS DO REPLY.
Thank you whoever-your-name-is but nah. Me? A model? Total crap.
But that's okay, cause I'm here to stay.
Radin Suriana's Day.
The plan goes smoothly. It was nice seeing cheese in my meals. It'd be nicer if I see cheese on every of my meal. HAHA. Anyway, today started off well and something cock up in the middle but in the end, it was preety.
On a brighter note, I felt relieved once again after keeping secrets for 2 straight days and when my phone rang and the screen displayed "Zul" which sister grab that phone from the table to pass it to me, by then she saw his name.
Sister: Oh! Kau ada scandal eh! Me: Kau tak tau ke? Dari dulu pe scandal aku Zul. (My reasons are really true but I don't think she knew about that.)
After some minutes.
Sister: Eh! Buat apa Zul call kau eh? Me: Suka dia uh. Aku pun tak tau, dah lama dia tak call aku. Baru ni kali. Sister: Bedek! Step Zul lain je! Me: Betul! ZulFadli! Nak check, check uh!
I felt relieved when she say "tak payah!". Oh my goodness. Sucha close shave. HAHA! Anyway, pictures could help me say it all.
Last but not least, Happy 21st Birthday sister! Oh no. You're age-ing. So am I.
I had Pizza. Muhammad Firdaus too ordered Pizza in camp to celebrate for having 100% passes in every test they took. Muhammad Firdaus, your girlfriend is reallyveryso proud of you. HAHA. BUT, you got 3 more tests to go. Make sure you pass those too.
And I feel bad. I spent lesser time with him tonight by the phone.
If you could see what I've seen.
And now I feel like blogging again.
I don't know why but today I feel so happy and hyper. Is it because of a can of red bull I've drank just now? Or maybe the satay Mama bought from Johor? Wait! Maybe because of tomorrow? HAHA. I guess so.
Okay let's pray hard sister won't drop by my blog which I believe she wouldn't so yeah, we family together with Zul planned on having a surprise birthday for her tomorrow. That i totally can't wait because we're having it at Pizza Hut and I badly am craving for those cheese, cheese and more cheeses. (HAHA! Only my BFs know how's my attitude when I got cheese in my hands!)
Right. I know what you all thinking. Unlike people who went to Pizza Hut for their Pizzas and Pastas. But me, cheese! -______________- Laugh all you want. "Cheese is my 2nd lover.." -as quoted by Muhammad Firdaus- what!
Talking about Muhammad Firdaus. I told him if ever we were to quarrel again, we'll fight over at the arcade for car racing. So we'll challenge as a beginner using automatic cars. So then, who get's the 1st place, wins!
Then he recommended on having guitar hero instead of car racing. I declined because I've never practiced on that game so car racing is still on! When I'm really goooood at guitar hero than we'll challenge on that okay baby!
HAHA! And uh, I so sound like I'm deprived of motherhood by imagining Muhammad Firdaus as a baby which I'm buying him a pacifier so he won't sulk anymore, Mamy Poko Pants which he used that when he's a real baby (me too! me too! me too!), Sustagen milk(which he wants Anlene instead but then I'd gave him Anlene Gold for stronger bones). Then I gave him a big hug for getting mad and sang him Barney song!
~..I love you. You love me. We are happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you. Won't you say you love me too..~ (aww.. so sweet of you Radin Shazwani. You're sure to be a good mother one day!)
-_______________________-
Okay please ignore above. I know I'm 32. (Go ahead. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laught at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Laugh at me. Go ahead. I don't mind. I don't care.)
And when I mind, it simply means that I care..
Chocolate Cookies!
I think my tag board is preety sensitive these days. Yes it did filter bad words. And not bad words too! -__________-
Anyway, I bought more cookies from Marks & Spencer again yesterday. Not forgetting a packet for Muhammad Firdaus. So I have 2 packets of Digestive Milk Chocolate and a packet of Chocolate Cookies in total for him.
After which I went to the next shop; Isetan to get myself a dress. Then I saw this men long sleeve shirt so I asked Mama if it's nice then she say, yes. So I told her if I could get that for Muhammad Firdaus, she agreed. So I took M size for him which I hope it'd fit him perfectly.
Then I told Muhammad Firdaus about those things that I bought for him and how handsome he's gonna look on that shirt. But he scold me for not telling him first before buying. Ada ke patut?! HAHA!
But still I'm happy cause I can't wait to see him wear that shirt during sister's engagement! Hip hip hooray! Actually I haven't consume any foods since I'm awake just now so that explains how terribly hungry I am right this minute.
And now no one can touch us..
Should I go or not?
What if I were to be the only girl there? Not that I'm not used to being the only girl with my classmates but this is an outing. Outing and school is not the same, you see.
HOW?
Nevertheless, Faizal has got a good point there. "kau nk malu buat apa kita classmate kan. lagi pun that time aku sorang lelaki belajar dng korang kat lib". Yes, I totally agree.
But really, the feeling is of a total different!
No girly-girly talk. No girly-girly laugh. No girly-girly walk. No girly-girly window shop. No girly-girly everything. What the hell, I know. Cause I've been with guys all along in school. I can turn into a guy like this, one day. (Okay please don't Radin Shazwani!)
Beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries.
Nabilah's Day.
Oh yes. We celebrated another one of our BFs day in advance yesterday. A surprise birthday for the birthday girl turns out to be a surprise birthday for those who celebrated it with her. GRR!
Well, at least. Taufiq has done a great job. Seems like it's his first time planning a surprise birthday for someone cause I helped him manage his surprise plan and call up the girls side and all, so I know. HAHA!
So anyway, Nabilah, I hope you really enjoyed your day with us despite the fact that Syaf couldn't make it due to her tight schedule for work. And I'm preety sure, she'll make it up to you one day okay?
PICTURES!
Can I not stay and live this lie?
Unwell.
Can I do something better other than watching television, playing computer, do some random scribblings or even rot at home like nut?
I'm down with fever that's why. Okay actually both me and Muhammad Firdaus were down with fever. Kita cute, aku tau. -_____________-
Oh btw, I saw this preety new-in-stock Rip Curl sling yesterday at Vivo. Mama was on the verge of taking out her ATM card to pay for it but I change my mind to not get it. Because I've got too many bags and furthermore, I've been asking a lot of things from her lately already. So, tell me I'm a good girl, people. (Well at least Muhammad Firdaus says that I am a good girl without me asking him to tell me that I am. *grins*)
I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell..
I'm happy. =)
People say when you love somebody, write his name and draw a circle around it. Never draw a heart shape around it cause a heart could break while a circle is a shape that goes round and round, forever. And I just did it. See!
And I totally miss you.
If I fall over, will you catch me, baby?
Results Day.
Yes. An early post so a very good morning all. =)
These days have been disastrous. I'm unwell. With a very bad addition to it is results which I'm totally worried for it and Muhammad Firdaus have been listening to "I'm scared. My results. How?" for umpteen times already.
So yesterday night I keep logging in NYP Portal and check my results every minute but it keeps telling me that it's not available yet. I gave up and stare at my laptop screen till 1am till I couldn't stand any longer so I slept in front of my laptop, not switched off.
Then I was awake by Muhammad Firdaus message asking how's my result so I quickly replied him "I wanna check it right now." and "I'm scared." to go along with it. Told you I've been telling him how scared I was and he's being a good boyfriend who motivates me with inspiring words like "you'll be fine" and "i have faith in you", things like that.
So I login and still it's unavailable. I off laptop, head to my living room getting all worried. Then I received another message. And it's from NYP this time.
I checked bit by bit. First module, passed. Second, passed. And I continued until I reached the ninth module which is the last module, passed.
So I thank Allah so much for letting me passed all my modules once again. And I've learnt with His help and me trying my very best, I can make it.
Then I showed my parents this superb news and of course forwarded that message to Muhammad Firdaus too. So now, I can enjoy without any worries! Oh yeay!
Thank you Allah once again, I love you.
NCO Camp.
After 3 days away from home, I went back. For once I feel so short like a primary school kid with big bulky bag pack but that's the very part I'm satisfied with; home sweet home.
The warm heart feeling picture of the cadets.
Being an instructor was never easy.
For that two ass-es.
Oh please don't come back and ruin our lovely build castle.
PLEASE!
Just back off before I snap. I won't simply let you both destroy this. Cause we believe our love is strong. Very strong.
And do treat us with mutual respect, thank you.
Oh Dearest Love.
Today is our day and you’re not here with me yet again. But even though you’re away serving the nation, still you could make me feel that I’m important by contacting me every single day without fail be it during your free time, your lesson time, your curi-curi time and your bed time, already makes my everyday.
And because you’re Muhammad Firdaus, the man I’ve been with for 4 months and that only man who understands me what love means and because I believe that your love is true makes me loving you more than I love myself.
I know we’ve been bad these days and I’m the cause for everything. So now it’s my turn to let you hear to this song which means a lot to me. Here is for you Muhammad Firdaus.
But before that, pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease, pause the song at the top first. =) Then play this video.
It's so hard to say that I'm sorry I'll make everything alright All these things that I've done Now what have I become, and where'd I go wrong? I don't mean to hurt, just to put you first I won't tell you lies (I'm sorry) I will stand accused With my hand on my heart I'm just trying to say
I'm sorry It's all that I can say You mean so much And I'd fix all that I've done If I could start again I'd throw it all away To the shadows of regrets And you would have the best of me
I know that I can't take back all of the mistakes But I will try Although it's not easy I know you believe me Cause I would not lie Don't believe their lies Told through jealous eyes They don't understand (I'm sorry) I won't break your heart I won't bring you down But I will have to say
Happy 4th monthsary, baby!
At my place.
It's nice to have them hanging around at my place just to have a meet up because it's been more then a week the last time we met and yeah, the word 'nice' just defines everything.
And 'love' too defines us.
Love without hurting is not love..
Through these nights.
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy.
This is all I need.
And if i fall..
And now.
I can go crazy like this.
What the hell am I thinking?
I'm scared if I lose you, I'm not prepared.
I love Saturdays.
Just me and you sat on a cozy cushion under a gigantic screen with some popcorns or maybe nacho cheese and your shoulder for my head to lie on is the nicest thing I could ever ask for..
..was what I only dreamt of. -____________________________-
Because that bloody tickets were all selling fast and the next show available will be very late. Damn you who watch that Watchmen show today. You should have give Muhammad Firdaus some heart or some chance cause tomorrow he'll be booking in and that he really wanna watch that movie.
Nevertheless, sharing logic and stupid jokes, laugh hysterically or should I say when-I-laugh-I-sound-like-a-donkey and talk about his NS days simply make my day. Okay wait. What I mean is that spending time with him is always the best and I want more. HAHA.
This may sound typical but no words could describe how much I love you Muhammad Firdaus cause that clearly explains my feelings, I swear.
With my hand on my heart, I just wanted to say..
Congratulations Rabit!
I am
very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very
happy for one of my Hammies,
Rabi'atul Adawiyah, for achieving
very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very
good grades for her 'A' level. Very
proud of you Rabit!
Let's celebrate! HAHA! I sound like I'm the one who got those results. As requested by her, I'm not gonna mention her results here cause I know she's a good girl who don't like to show off of her grades. But trust me, her grades are veryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery good.
The star up in the sky..
Something that perks me up.
So I had Strawberry Cheesecake from Ben & Jerry's which was not as powerful as Haagen Dazs in the morning. And now I'm having a very Hot Chocolate that could burn my tongue so bad after a few more sips. Nevertheless, I'm satisfied for everything. Every single thing.
And I got another tub of Chocolate Fudge Brownie from Ben & Jerry's to be eaten. Tomorrow. I'm gonna eat that all up by tomorrow. Muhammad Firdaus must have envy me with that and when he gets to know I ate Arnolds yesterday. HAHA!
So he asked me to treat him to Ice Cream without mentioning from which shop, therefore I offered him cheap Ice Cream from Mama shop. Cause I believe he'd go with everything that I do. *teasehimteasehimteasehim*
And I just checked out from Yahoo! Movies that My Bloody Valentine is not R21 but M18 instead, as advised by Muhammad Firdaus. (Now who's that clever one who said that it's R21? HAHA!). I thought of catching that cause the best part is it's in 3D and Jensen Ackles acts in it. But it's okay. Watchmen this Saturday would be nice. =)
I lovelove and missmiss him more..
Atiqah's Day.
Okay so this very-early-post-but-it's-the-right-time-to-post specially goes out to one of my Hammies, Atiqah, for achieving in growing a year older.
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ATIQAH! Oh no, you're aging. Soon it'll be my turn. I DON'T WANT CAN?!
So anyway, the last time we met was on January. Another meet up session can Hammies? =) Now let me post a picture of her since this post is for her and only hers.
OOOOPSS! Wrong picture! Haha. "Oooopss!" aku mintak kena tampar. Okay next picture please.
That one can? No? Can or no? Okay fine. I'll get you nicer one. But that one cute what? Nevermind. Nevermind. NEXT!
ALRIGHT! Much better! And much more decent. =) HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY again Atiqah! Hope you enjoy your day to the fullest.
And why the hell did I post like a primary kid this time?
P.S. Atiqah! Bila nak vroom-vroom aku around Singapore?
In just a blink of an eye..
Taufiq's Day.
Yesterday was 28th of February, the day we celebrated Taufiq's birthday which actually falls on 8th of March but we've got no other choice since each of us were busy with something else on some planned dates therefore we got yesterday to celebrate his day.
So yeah Taufiq, Happy 19th very advance Birthday not-good-anymore boy! -___________________-
Cause he learned some new-yet-disgusting words from other boys and still could make a story upon those words that have been learnt. Very bad boy!
So, back to the story.
The cutest thing is that we prepare all his birthday stuff right in front of the Tampines Mall door and had our port(a void deck, to be precise) as a place to celebrate his birthday. We wanted to do it at the park near the pond at Tampines Sec area initially but we had void deck instead for a back-up plan since the weather doesn't seem nice.
Which the weather wasn't nice at all! It pours so heavily where we got trapped under another void deck. While being trapped, you all should know what we did since the bestest thing there with us is a mouth to talk and talk and a camera to take tons and tons of pictures. But my camera plays evil with me and went dead right after Taufiq's picture with number '19' on his forehead which I'm gonna show you all right after this.
Anyway, thank you for hooking-up and still hooking-up with this many-words post of mine. Cause yes you know, my post don't have a lot of pictures to be posted unlike Nabilah's. Go to hers for more.
That was the day before when we got all of his birthday gifts. And the last picture simply explains our butt-smacking game. It's like the attempt of I-want-to-smack-hers-but-she-grabbed-my-hand-so-tight-then-she-wants-to-smack-mine-at-the-same-time-so-I-won't-give-her-the-chance-therefore-I-quickly-grabbed-another-hand-of-hers. Then the one who took this picture which obviously is Syaf, doesn't want to get involved so the reason of hers is to make herself busy by snapping pictures. What a story line Ony! But the butt-smacking part is true.
Okay. Okay. BACK to the story. So this was the real day.
Told you! My camera went dead right after that picture!
Oh yes, I haven't been mentioning Muhammad Firdaus name here. I know this week I've gone to him more then I go to my bestfriends. I believe my bestfriends understand that I've missed him too much already after almost-2-weeks I didn't get to meet him. So thank you so much bestfriends!
And you, Muhammad Firdaus. Thank you for the day.
Oh my! I don't plan to write a lot but I did. HAHA! What the hell?! Ni pun aku nak bilang?
