Tell you all what. Muhammad Firdaus is my bestest boyfriend ever! Cause you know why? Let’s go by example. Did any of your boyfriend treat your best friends to movies (which that includes drinks, popcorns and nacho chips) a day before he went to serve the nation? Anyone?
Cause my boyfriend did just that. He treats Nabilah, Fahmi and me for Bedtime Stories movie. He really did spend a lot for me; from taxi rides to foods to everything. I appreciate it all.
And that’s the last time he’s gonna fetch me off from school.
I’ve always hate it when we reaching my home all these days when I’m with him. Cause from there we parted. Yesterday is the day I hate the most. Cause I know we’re gonna be away from each other for a very long painful 10 days. And you know what? I hate no. 10 for now.
I’m strong. But I’m not as strong as I used to for yesterday night. I don’t wish to cry in front of him. But I couldn’t fight my own feeling. It’s too strong and yes feelings, you defeated me. Three cheers for my feelings! -___-
And because of that, I made him worry.
I calmed down after he assures me what he supposed to. I couldn’t really sleep so at 4 in the morning, I started messaging him. A few seconds after I press on ‘send’ button, my phone vibrates and it’s a message from him. I read and I break down.
It says;
“Baby.. i can’t sleep.. I dun wan to leave u for the 10 days.. but i noe its impossible.. I feel like crying nw.. n jus to let u noe i hold my tears when i hug u juz nw n i burst into tears the time u walk to ur hse at ur corridor when i was standing at the lift lobby.. i noe i sound like a sissy but i dun care.. i too in love wif u very much.. only god now how painful my heart feel rite nw..i regret 4 nt spending enuff time 4 u.. niwae.. sorry to disturb u sleepin.. hope u have a gd nite sleep.. n dun wary bout me kae.. i will b fine.. i love u my preety princess.. mwuarckz!!”
You all tell me how can I not break down? HOW?! That is so saddening okay!
This time we attempt to calm each other down. And I hope I did my job well, cause he did so well this time. So I took a short nap then get ready for school.
On the way out, I received another message from him asking me where am I and all. I replied him which I doubt he received my reply therefore he message me this.
“baby.. u lom bangun..? sorie if im disturbing u.. but i need you nw for the last few mins.. tkpe la.. jus tc of yourself kae.. i love u so much!! mwuarckz!!”
Again I break down but this time I lied telling him that I’m okay. At the same time I tried consoling him assuring that everything’s going to be alright. It’s difficult. You imagine; you yourself feeling so heartbreaking to see him go then you gotta act and lie of your own feeling and tell him that he gotta be strong to face all this while you yourself is weak.
This time I cried like hell and make people around stare at me giving confirm-dapat-result-pregnant-then-jantan-lari-tinggalkan look. And by that time I reached school so I have my friends to cheer me up. I swear they care for me like I’m so fragile.
Except for Faizal! He said something about ‘current’ gun then they have to try it out to their own body at 1 volt. He mentioned that some can make it, some cannot. Which that reminds me of Muhammad Firdaus message.
It says;
“ok.. i trust u.. u pun have to trust me kae tat i b fine there.. i really wish to b by urside there whole time.. as i said.. i promise to call u bile2 possible kae.. u take gd care of urself kae.. sape bully tell me nanty i tembak dier.. haha.. da la u tkmo nangis lagy kae.. don ask bout me.. hee.. baby.. im really sorie bout everythin I done bad to u during our relationship.. i noe im nt yet to ur expectation.. i try to change n make it up to u kae.. mwuarckz!!”
Heard that Faizal? He’s gonna shoot you! BOO! And who else wanna bully me? Come! Okay I’m trying to joke and make myself happy here. Don’t mind me readers.
And thank you a lot Nabilah for being there always. I appreciate it all tau!
Muhammad Firdaus wants me not to be sad and be happy always while he’s not around. How can I do that? But for him, I’ll try my best. Cause I believe he’ll be back. 10 days is chicken feet. I’ll wait for you my Mr Policeman!
Right now he complains how ugly he looks with botak head and how sucky the food taste there. Haha! Sucha cute thing!
While I told him I haven’t even had my bath since I’ve been home at 7 just now just to wait for his calls. He says that I’m smelly. I ask how can he smell me. Then he says, “I’m in your heart remember?!” Oh yes of course! How can I forget about that! Stupidnya Ony!
So I’ll be safe wherever I go with my Mr Policeman in my heart. 9 more days! Okay, I hate no. 9 now. Not no. 10 anymore.
Oh no! His free time ending soon!
Wherever you go I will be waiting..