I don't wanna sound as pathetic as I have been all these while. I don't wanna ask for more sympathy. Indeed, I hate people's pity. I hope what I'm doing sooner or later is right. I hope I won't regret over it. I hope I can move on. I hope I won't make anymore mistakes, like this. I hope. Not that I can.

But I am doing what's best for him. I think of his feelings more then I do to myself. I don't care if I'm hurt. What matters most is his happiness. He shouldn't live this way. He deserve something better than this. Something better than leading a life with this stupid and unappreciative woman.

And in order for him to achieve something better is for me to let go. He'll definitely find true happiness someday without me. Although I know I am weak without him, in this period of time, he taught me to be strong when he wasn't there physically, mentally and verbally.

But I prefer being weak with him rather then being strong without him.

Dear Allah, please give me the courage to tell him what's left in my heart. This might hurt him but it's killing me. And please give me more courage to face this reality. Alone.

But I've never wish this to happen..Never.